I think I actually tried to kill myself last Thursday. One of those halfhearted, 'cry for help' types and ended up getting a weekends worth of Baker Act. If you're not familiar with it, in Florida if you express thoughts of killing yourself or someone else the police can take you into protective custody. Actually, the drop you off at the Mental Health Center and the shrinks watch you for a bit. I am so thankful for the people who love me enough to do that to me. I managed to get some much needed perspective on life. Like the guy who's got advanced lung cancer and coughs up blood when he's not on medication. He fell off a 2 story building and broke several bones and even had a piece of his spine pressing against his spinal cord and his hands were stuck shut. They managed to fix that, but they said if he moves to suddenly he could be stuck without legs.
I behaved myself all weekend, spoke with a psychiatrist and am now taking Celexa to try and manage my depression until I can either beat it or figure out if it's clinical or situational. I'm hoping it's just situational and once I get back to work and back on my feet I can get off of it. The money for the 'scrip isn't that bad, but I still have to find a doc that will write the order up for me. ^_^ That's the expensive part. XD I got out on Monday and have been taking my meds like a good little loony.
Then on Tuesday I find out my Dad has Cancer. Not sure what types but the labs come back positive. It'll be a few more days until we know for sure. I think my heart stopped a couple of times yesterday. Everyone seems to be taking it okay, but I'm not around everyone that much. Mom & Dad are across town, sister is in another county. His mom (Memaw) is taking it okay too.
In good news, I have a job prospect Friday, and I have some new games to pass the time until I do go back to work.
